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i wish i could take away every inch of ache that consumed you. i wish i could make you smile. i wish you’d let me hold you, to keep all the little pieces together as they fell apart. i wish i could take his place just so you could have the perfect future you wanted with him. you’re my sister. the single most important person to me. you’re the love of my life. my inspiration. my rock. you didn’t deserve this. neither did he. he was supposed to be here still and everything was supposed to be perfect. i see the broken smile and the girl behind the mask. i see the breakdowns and breakthroughs. i see the reminiscence. i’m sorry that i can’t do anything to fix anything. all i can do is love you as much as i do and forever be by your side. i’m sorry.